Capacity That Was < Capacity That Is

Sometimes, I think of myself as a coffee cup: constant capacity, fill and refill on command.

But when I do that, I just stay mad. At myself. For not having constantly replenishing capacity.

The ongoing pandemic has thrown a lot of how I treat myself into stark relief.

Is that true for you as well?

You see, 2019 Liz had WAY more capacity than a 2022 Liz does. And I've caught myself thinking, well I'm just better at knowing my own boundaries now. Surely I have the same capacity I used to.

But I don't. And I'd bet money you don't either.

We're living through an ongoing pandemic AND late-stage capitalism.

Living in a constant state of comparison to my former self doesn't help me.

What do we do?

For me, an answer is always get with other folks. Remember you're not alone.

Another answer is to allow myself to grieve. So many of us have been through so much and are constantly asked to just keep moving. There's hardly ever a space to just be. I'd like to name here that Toi Marie and Jen Lemen hold regular space to grief in their Spell of Capitalism program.

Would you like to join me?

On August 7th, 2022, I'll be hosting a grief ritual and workshop called Capacity That Was < Capacity That Is.

It will be two 90-minute sessions with a 30-minute break in the middle.

During the first session, we'll acknowledge and grieve what has been. I'll invite you to take part in whatever way works for you. For me, it usually involves fire. But water, earth, or air will work as well. We'll share our experiences and hold space.

During the second session, we'll talk about what your capacity really looks like now and how to discuss it with other people.

Details & Logistics:

• August 7, 2022
• 8:00 - 11:30 am PDT // 11:00 am - 2:30 pm EDT // 4:00 - 7:30 pm BST
• Session will be recorded and available in your dashboard